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In The Midst of Calm…

What has happened?


For months, I have been out of my real little world, trying to fit in to this crazy circle, trying to change who I really am… trying to be the opposite of how I knew myself to be and free myself from what I thought was prison… I was wrong.

I am an introvert trying to live an extrovert’s life and I thought I can. I thought my love for solitude was a lie which I have convinced myself to be true. But here I am… sitting alone on a bench… at the 50th floor of my block… staring at the moon and city lights… thinking… No. I won’t jump.

For the past weeks, I don’t feel like myself. I feel so detached and purposeless. I feel so down, short-tempered, and agitated. I was stressed, overfatigued, sad. One morning, I woke up and thought, “you are a waste of everything, useless and your life is pointless. Why are you even still breathing at this rate?” I carried a whole world of burden and fed my mind senseless ideas that wouldn’t even help me get out of this trap.


I know the answer as to why I have become like this… because I wasn’t who I was trying to be. What I thought was the prison, the cell that I left, was indeed my real home. And the world that I thought would be my home was a chaotic cage I will never, ever be able to understand and tolerate. I wasn’t ME.

So who am I, then? After all the adventures I did, why can’t I still find my purpose?

This is still a question I don’t have an answer to. I am at my most vulnerable. I have tried hard to fit in. I have lost most of the people I believed to be my friends. I am out of touch. I am LONELY. I am a single dot of darkness in a bright world.

And this… this is my escape. My words… my writings… This is the only thing that calms my soul and eases my pains. I miss solitude. I miss where I am supposed to be. I miss my unique world. I miss my little corner…

Thank you, Moon. For you have never left me during my troubled times…



Leaving Footprints: Bintan, ID

Who says Bintan, Indonesia is a crappy place?

Honestly, I have heard lots of people talking about Bintan like it is a very ugly place, or that it is one of the worst. Looking at the map, Bintan is quite a huge island so they are probably talking about the centre, right? The “city” or where the life of the island is. No, they are wrong. Sometimes, the “life” of the island is not where people flock, but where people find peace, one with the place, one with nature. 

Kenny and I do lots of research before we go to a trip. We find the best locations to be and the things we can do. Since we don’t want to experience the “crap” they were talking about, we looked for a nice place where we can do loads of things…
And we found De Bintan Villa.


It is a Villa situated outside the eco-tourism zone and inside the “jungle” as what I call it, remotely built on a hill, which they claim as a better location to be because the land and taxes are cheaper and they are the first to build, soon enough, investors and builders will come and invade the place as well, which I think is true enough.

We were picked up from the ferry terminal by their friendly staff, not that excellent in English but is learning and trying to speak the language, which is good. He discussed with us what we can do at the villa and where we can go.

We reached the place, and were entertained by their lovely receptionists, dinner was served and we were ushered up to our highly situated room. It was an awesome place to be! I will tell you why.

On our first day, we went out around the villa and see what they have in it and checked their Sky View Tower high enough to see what’s in Bintan. And guess what? We didn’t see anything! Anything but trees, mountains and the sea! Nothing else! So where is the “crap” when nature is the best place to be?

In the afternoon, we asked them to bring us to Lagoi beach.

Lagoi is beautiful! White, fine sand, resorts and food and shopping centres were well built quite far from the shore and well designed as well. The funny thing is, there are no tourists around. Prolly a few hiding somewhere in that wide expanse of beach, but I wasn’t able to see any, really. The only people there were locals, muslims on their little seaside picnic with their families so it is actually quite awkward to swim with only your two-piece on. 😅 The properties near the beach were nicely landscaped like you were inside a resort but you weren’t. And we saw these wonderfully designed vehicles for touring around. 

We hung around the place a little bit longer and decided to move and do something else since we have different facilities in the villa that we can use for free.

At evening time after dinner, we went up the hill again to their billiard cottage with our beers and played all night long. We even saw a snake!


The next morning, we decided to use the cute pool that they have. We also thought that we will just stay in the villa rather than go to the city centre and be disappointed.

So we did Flying Fox Zipline and Rubber Tapping, wonderful experience of producing your rubber from a tree! We also went cycling around the whole villa, including the areas that are idle and under construction. It was a huge place!


At the end of the day, we were sent to the ferry terminal by their guy and we concluded that we both had a nice time in Bintan. And that Bintan is not a crappy place. You just have to learn to look deeper into the island and explore what people don’t normally explore. There are hidden treasures inside those jungles.
By the way, for S$115 dollars a night, we had all wonderful meals and most of the facilities for free, and of course a lovely room! Check out their website De Bintan Villa if you want to learn more. 😊

– K

Leaving Footprints: Final – Langkawi, MY


We arrived in Langkawi, Malaysia!

Famished upon arriving at about noon, we set off for Arts Cafe which is quite far from the ferry terminal but we still decided to walk it to explore the place more and we first landed on Eagle Square under the heat of the sun and then Legenda Park, an interestingly landscaped park for photo op.

After lunch, we took a cab to Tubotel where we stayed for one night. It is a room, or I might have to describe it accurately, a bed with a headboard inside a concrete tube. Clever. Oh, and it also has aircon. Your door is also your window.. with a curtain.

Tadah! This is our room!

It was a nice place, with wonderful staff, great breakfast, amazing sunrise, and peaceful view of the waters. It was quite a long walk to the centre of Langkawi so we just relaxed on the first day because why not? We had a tiring adventure along the way. See below, this is the sunrise I am talking about. Nice, right?

On our second day, we set out for Pulau Payar Marine Park to snorkel and swim with sharks… yes, you read it right, SHARKS!! Some of the big ones are over a metre in length and the friendly little ones that swim in the shallow waters are more or less about half a metre long. It is a nice experience! It makes you see that not all sharks are bad and you don’t have to be afraid. 

At night, we walked the whole length of the centre just to look for food and we ended up in this queued out Orkid Ria Seafood Restaurant. We had big, meaty prawns for dinner! Ohlala!

And by the way, we checked in to our next hotel: Chenang Inn. We got a family room, which is the only available room they had at that time and it’s okay! We had like a double bed for each of us! Isn’t that great?! Anyway, I will continue with our adventures.
On our second day, since all scooters have been rented out, we went for a cab, which is also quite reasonably priced (lease for 4 hours + additional fee every hour), to take us anywhere we want to go in Langkawi.

First stop, Telaga Tujuh – Seven Wells Waterfalls!!! Warning: Before you can even reach the waterfalls, you have to hike a steep concrete path, so prepare your lungs and your feet! When we reached it… It was amazing! We went up to the pool up the rocks and had fun with other tourists there sliding on the smooth rocks and drowning in the waters!

Then we asked the cab driver to take us to the Black Sand Beach (well, not as black as I expected it to be but seeing it in black is already amazing). I would like to see the Pink Sand Beach too which is somewhere in the world. 😅

We were almost done with our four hours and we kinda don’t want to pay extra but who cares when you can rent a private jacuzzi in Ayer Hangat for an hour and enjoy the hot tub for yourselves? Much needed relaxation and treatment for stress! So, yes, we extended the cab for an hour because the travel back to the centre is also quite long. It was worth the travel, though!

We then checked in to our last hotel for the trip and the best so far, Fint Hus. It has a pool we never used and friendly and accomodating staff. The room is nice. You know why they are the best? They left us with Ferrero Rocher chocolates on the bed! 😍🍫

The best part of the trip is the last night. Because it was NEW YEAR’s EVE!! We went to the beach, bought paper lanterns, wrote lots of things on it and flew them up to the sky while fireworks are popping and everybody dancing and kissing and having fun! It was a very good, adventurous end of our year and hoping for more travels together!

I hope you enjoyed reading and I hope you got some cues when you travel to Langkawi! Bye for now!

– K

Leaving Footprints: 2nd Stop Northbound – Penang, MY

This is not really in the plan. It was included last minute because we wanted a cheap trip to Langkawi but we also wanted to have a little adventure first before relaxing. So here comes Penang!

Penang is know for it’s amazing streets, the information centre can even give you a map of their Fantastic-Street-Arts-and-Where-To-Find-Them. We didn’t find them all, though. We simply roamed around Georgetown and let the street arts find us. They are not ordinary by the way. They are history, which makes them more interesting.

Another sample for you along Love Lane.

I can play with all the arts all day long!

“Can you please open the door Mister? I’ve been knocking here since 6am!”

And we will be willing to queue no matter how long it might take us..

Can someone tell this kid to get off the bike? It’s dangerous!

Okay, enough. I have shown you quite a lot. You better go to Penang to see all of them! They’re so cool! Before I proceed, let’s first have a giant serving of CENDOL! My favorite dessert. 😋 This is Wonderfood Museum where you can see the local delicacies in a bigger picture like…literally.

We also went into the beautiful Pinang Peranakan Mansion where you will be briefed about the lifestyle, customs, and traditions of a rich Baba during the old times. Just wow!

Look at this lovely chair.. Oh! I can sit here with my love all day long! This chair was used by couples so they can chat nicely and meet eye to eye while holding each other’s hands.

A mansion filled with antiques, with gold, with wealth, with characteristics carefully thought through, with stories from the past which they persevere to preserve and maintain for probably the coming hundred years or more because they are memories and treasures worth keeping forever.

There’s too many things to see in here, it is huge! You can spend one day just admiring every little detail they put in it and imagining every effort the people from yesteryears have alloted just to build and carry on conserving this expensive thing up.
Finally, we went to the beach in Batu Feringghi to end our successful adventure in Penang and chill for the night since we had a very, very productive day I must say, and then we had to leave early morning for the ferry to Langkawi. Aah! What a delightful trip it is! Thank you, Penang!

See you soon, Langkawi! 😘

– K

Leaving Footprints: First Stop Northbound – Melaka, MY 

A trip to Malaysia from Singapore is cheap and easy. Take a bus up north and you will already be in a different country. There are several bus terminals from the Little Red Dot that travels to different parts of MY, one of which is Malacca (Melaka).

It is about a 5-hour bus ride, so leave early because you can actually go around Malacca in one day and be able to see most of it, like what we did, though it was a big challenge for us because we were dropped off at a different terminal, not at the central terminal so we WALKED about 3km to get to the main city (because we were backpacking and backpackers don’t spend money on cabs). Silly of us not to check the drop off first before booking.

Malacca has stunning views and artistic buildings and streets. It is a simple city yet astonishingly marvellous where each step you make takes you to something surprisingly new and colorful.

I fell in love with this place to be honest. And I swear I will come back here to once again see the things that I haven’t taken enough time to look at, and I will surely spend more time staring at everything in glee!

Each corner is full of culture & history combined with modern scheme that calls tourists to visit it.

Such history where these lotus shoes for the lotus feet came from. A shop called Bound Feet in Jonker Street, Malacca will tell you more… the owner claimed that they are the last store making lotus shoes, the business was started by his great grandfather and was passed on from generation to generation. I cringe everytime I see the shoes because it reminds me of the story of a dark past for Chinese women who were made to believe that small feet defines beauty. You can read more about it here.

Malacca is full of beauty in every turn, full of life and wonder. Full of antiques, unique buildings, historical sites, colorful graffiti and good food as well!

It was indeed a very fruitful and exhilarating stop for our northbound journey! A few hours in it is enough to make me enjoy the things this little city has to offer.

Oh, and when you go for something to eat, try The Daily Fix Cafe and for dessert, Nadeje! They are awesome! 😋

Here goes Malacca! Next stop: Penang, MY!

– K

Ramen the Singaporean Way

I have always been on quest for noodles (as you may have noticed under my food blogs), searching for the most delicious, satisfying and the one with the “I-will-come-back-for-you” quality… the quest is still on but I may have encountered the best!
Introducing A NOODLE STORY‘s Singapore Ramen! 👏

Deliciously made by careful hands making sure that your bowl is perfectly set up! Something you don’t even want to ruin even if you are super hungry!

Located at 7 Maxwell Road #01-39 Amoy Street Food Centre, 069111 , this stall already has a queue before it opens at 11:15am! This is definitely a must try for tourists! Cheapey cheap cheap with the quality of a restaurant ramen. I am damn serious.

Also, it has been awarded with Michelin Guide’s Bib Gourmand. So what are you waiting for? Head down now to Amoy Street! 👍


Living Luxuriously in the Jungle of Palawan

This story has been long-overdue. And I am going to give you a glimpse of my El Nido experience now (which I should’ve done more than half a year ago 😅)!

So I told Kenny to surprise me. And he did!

From Spin where we spent our first night in El Nido, we were picked up by these young men at noon in front of the hostel (I may have forgotten their names, but not how they made us feel)!

All smiles, they took us to their wonderful, unique tricycle (which we were able to use whenever and wherever we wanted to go) and we flew, not literally though, to Aeta’s Glamping site while telling us about tour packages and El Nido itself, the spots we should visit and things we should do.

We arrived at their cutesy, little “lobby” where the owner, Elena Dunn, briefed us about what to expect during our stay. We were both awed by all the staff’s friendliness, jolliness, hospitality, warm welcome, and of course, their excellent service!

There are five huts with tribe names (actual tribes in Palawan), mountains and rice fields beside the location, wonderful people, delicious foods, the stay was absolutely amazing! We were served with welcome snacks in our Tribe Hut called Batak.

We were assisted to our hut with all prepared organic products, the short summary of where our tribe hut name came from, an awesome tent in a bamboo house with a comfortable double bed in it. Indeed glamorous. The room doesn’t have any aircon (there is no aircon in a camping site so don’t expect 😂), but you can unzip the windows, and voila! You have natural cooler produced by the mountains and trees! (They do have an electric fan, don’t worry.)

Welcome to their incredible shower room! So unique!

We were served with sumptuous breakfasts and delectable snacks in the afternoon with little chit chats with whoever brought the food to our humble hut. We were ushered very well and we didn’t feel like we were guests or how they address us, glampers, we were treated as family. 😍

Mouth-watering, right?

They have daily activities in the glamping site as recreational pastimes for the glampers and staff which we weren’t able to try. They have little shows and presentations for the guests to entertain them and thank them before they leave the site, little send off surprises. Plus they have an accomodating little man, Liam, who entertained us throughout our stay!

They connect. They communicate. They accept. I have been looking for the best place to stay and rates each hotel I have been to. Honestly, I have rated an accomodation with 10/10 already. Are you curious about Aeta’s Glamping El Nido‘s rate? It is an astounding 15/10! The whole stay exceeded my expectations! Amazing customer service, perfect team, lovely people and location. So far, I only have one place in mind that I will surely go back to… It was indeed the best surprise Kenny has ever prepared for me. And it always will be.. 😊

P.S. They have always won the five stars of every guests. Check them out here:

The Best Laid Plans

So.. There is another ongoing Kult Gallery Art Exhibition called Choking Hazard in which destroyed and unused toys were recreated by artists to bring them back to life simply by using their imagination and creativity. And once again, different artists made the event successful by submitting their own entries.

This piece…

is Kenny’s. Remember my blog about Champagne Supernova, his first artwork displayed in the same gallery? Well, now, this is the second! It is called The Best Laid Plans!

The event started on 17 February, 2017 and will close on 18 March, 2017 so those who wanted to see the artworks will still have time to view them, and prolly buy them! 

Having Kenny’s piece on display is already overwhelming for both of us. Although it would still be better if someone would buy his art! It is a favorite during the opening of the event. I hope someone would take it! Help me pray for it, guys. 😊
– K

Laugh Out Loud

It has been a while… and I am back!

If you ask me what made me come back to life again – I mean on my blog – it is because of this diary. Oh, it is a book. But it is also a diary. This gave me all the necessary motivation to say YES to things.. to do what makes me happy.. and to go back to writing.

Have you read this? If yes, what are your thoughts about it? Share it with me!
If you haven’t, oh c’mon, you are missing a lot.

Purchase the book now and start laughing out loud and learn.. and probably start becoming a YES MAN!

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